Hi guys, i'm sitting here behind my screen with some nice liquid dnb on the background and yet again the thought of dying goes through my head.
I think about this like every day. It just terrifies me to think about the fact that i will lose my parents, lose my brother and lose my girlfriend some time in the future, and i don't know how people can ignore this fact. I don't even feel ashamed to tell that i sometimes cry about this in my bed.
I don't believe in a god or after-life. So the thought of losing my close ones is really hard for me. The thought of never seeing them again..
There is so much shit going on with humanity at the moment, i really wonder when the first nuke will be dropped ( my thought at this moment )
I just don't understand how humanity fails to live in peace and harmony, i hate it and i wish i could change this.
There was a girl on my Facebook, 21 years old and dropped dead randomly because a vain snapped in her brains.
It can happen anytime, you can die without knowing it, you don't even have to suffer from a disease..you can be a healthy person. This can also happen to the people you love and that is in my opinion even worse than dying myself. the emptiness and idea of just not existing or feeling anything anymore is scary.
Am i the only person that thinks about death this often? i don't know how to forget about this or to ignore this fact.