I get it, posting on a video-game forum is pathetic. Well, it's where I'm at.
I'm working all the time, which is NOT been going well, and my grandmother passed away a few nights ago. I couldn't make it back to her funeral, because it's a 15-hour drive each way, and I wouldn't be able to see my family again for the rest of the year. So, yeah, I feel like a complete piece of shit about that. And then it brought up a lot of feelings about my grandfather, wondering if I'd be a huge disappointment in his eyes if he were still around.
I'm working all the time, and I'm just barely able to cover my expenses renting a BEDROOM from someone else's house. I'm second-guessing if this is a life-long career or not, and I really just want someone to hug me. Just hold my hand, or lean my head on her shoulder and just let some of this out. I feel like I'm trying my best to hold it together, and the stitching is coming apartl
I'm sure I'll wake up tomorrow, put on a happy face, and just go right back to pretending everything is hunky-dory. But right now, I really just wish someone was here to hold me. Or at least stare at a pair of mildly attractive boobs, and forget about everything for a night.