Originally Posted by
Raelbo
Dude, you're not getting it. For a normal human being this is a wonderful position to be in. You need to explain why this should cause any person to have anguish.
Again, this sounds like an incredibly strange mindset. The point of gear is that it's a means to an end, ie a way to get those kills. Yes, getting gear upgrades is always a nice feeling, which is precisely why the WF/TF is such a great system, because you can always potentially keep getting surprise upgrades.
It sounds to me like your primary problem is your own attitude - a bit like a child who can't appreciate his Christmas presents because he is terrified that someone else is getting something nicer. It's a personal shortcoming that you should work to overcome, rather than expecting everyone else to have to constrain themselves.