Originally Posted by
Phantombeard
I owned 3 stores at age 21, I worked 7 days a week , 16 hours a day. At age 25 I got married and had a little girl. I kept telling my wife, honey please just a few more years and we will be set. We will never want for anything ever again and we can raise our daughter and be happy but, as the old story goes. She wanted me there with her all the time and started causing problems. Some that tbh, I had only heard about or seen in horror movies. It done everything but cause me to commit suicide. I found a friend in Drugs. The next thing that followed was multiple arrests for Drug possession. I really wasn't doing anything with intent but it would be stuff, for example. Go to Mc'donalds for a burger and get pulled over and once the cops get your number they will pull you over everytime you go out. Legit or Not. The arrest just started piling up. What followed was rehab, then methadone, then rehab then methadone again, then then then then and the cycle never stops.
One extremely positive thing that came out of all of this was the fact of me experiencing that there is a supreme being. I won't go into the details, TBH I can't , its beyond me but the way certain events played. The way that over all the years it always felt like I was a chess piece being strategically moved to be in a certain places at exact certain times is undeniable. That is a very weak and shitty way of putting it, It is so much more but like I said it is above me. How in the end I was able to keep my daughter, how in the end things are finally all right but I know it wasn't by my hand. I really wish I could go into the more theological details of everything because I think it could really help some ppl. Just trust that there is a God. Just like some of you, every doubt, every question you got I had them. I guess God cared more about me than I thought and came for me. I know this much, you can dodge the fact or you can embrace and learn the fact/truth. You can ignore God for a long time, maybe even till death but I promise you he will come. Hopefully it will be on your terms and not his, mine were on his and I went through the grind, I could have made it easier on myself but I was to stupid I guess. Anyways don't do dumb shit and get arrested, if your arrested you can't be home playing WOW. That reason should be good enough. Peace.