I really hate it. No matter how much I try to calm myself down I get so pissed off in the end that I almost get violent. Sometimes I hit the table, sometimes I've thrown my headsets on the desktop (and ruined 2 of them so far) and now I just realized I started to cry because I died constantly in this one server. I've wanted to end it somehow, but I can never come up with a way. I think that others are probably better than me if they killed me, or it's fair play - but it doesn't matter. I get pissed anyway. All they have to do is to kill me a few times in a row and I'm at the boiling point. What am I supposed to do to calm myself down?