I think most of the people would agree that things aren't going well for us lately. I won't just list everything that's wrong and why, I'll just explain my perspective.
I don't enjoy the raids anymore. I have a lot of shit going around me and I want raids to be an escaping place from those problems. But some people/things are making this experience a living hell. I'm pretty sure I don't want to sit on vent in complete silence and wait for the boss to be pulled. I'm also pretty sure that I'm sick of the constant bitchfight of power conflicts.
There is a raid leader and his officers in the raid. And there are guild and raid rules. I'm not directing this to anyone, but I just don't want to be a part of this trainwreck of a raid.
I was unexpectedly happy after certain news I heard yesterday night. It made me clearly see that I don't want to do this anymore.
All this, and I also want to fix the trainwreck of a life that I have currently. My attendance to school is almost nonexistent, I get 0/100's from midterms, I don't do any assignments, but worst of all, I broke my mother's heart over a stupid game tonight.
Even if I'm not going to study more, I at least want to be sure that I don't have to be doing what I don't even enjoy for 12 hours a week, because it's taking from me more than I imagined it would.
I'm really sad about this, and this wasn't an easy decision.