My fiance called our wedding off 2 weeks before the date back in July. There was a lot of money that went to waste, but none of that compares to the emotions from the whole ordeal, feelings of guilt, inadequacy, shame, anger, pain and more.
Anywho, I'm a pretty happy and easy-going guy and I put on a good face every day, but when I am alone in my room at night or on the long drive home from work and school it's easy for my thoughts to wander and I am still extremely bitter, upset, and uncomfortable with the whole situation. I'm tired of using music and angry masturbation as a coping mechanism, and I'm looking for better/more efficient ways to take out anger and frustration. I mean completely let loose. I'm open to any ideas whether it's smashing things with a bat, trying to find a fuck-buddy online, getting stoned, writing things that make me angry on a card and burning it, anything that has helped you in similar situations with ex partners, whether spouse girlfriend or acquaintance.
Also, inb4 "I was married 3 years with family, lost house, lost my dog, my arm, etc..." I am aware my life isn't over, and I am still very fortunate compared to the next guy so just keep moving on if you want to flame.