So I am 5 feet tall and done growing, 20 going on 21 soon. Here is a pic: http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=i5ddae&s=6 I weigh 120lbs and literally can pass for being any age from 12-18. Most people think i'm 16-17 until they meet me. I have scoliosis and a very slight form of dwarfism, as well as hypochondroplasia, as I look like a normal man (no short stubby arms/legs/neck like most dwarfs/midgets.) I have had a very hard life due to my height, Never had a serious relationship, never had sex, I constantly feel used by everyone, my friends use me, I feel like I work harder than others at jobs yet don't get the same recognition, I always feel like I have to do more/show more just to get my way or even be heard. My ankle/knee/hip joints are different than everyone elses, my ankle joints are somewhat inverted, I cannot do near as much physical running and activity as others. I have played golf since I was 4 years old but even then my height stopped me from going anywhere with it because I could not hit the ball near as far as everyone else, and in college the courses they play are build for long hitters. People always say you will look younger when your older, or you will find a shorter girl, or don't let it effect you. But I am so sick of people saying this, I will never listen to anyone taller telling me to not let it effect me because if you really think about it, their ENTIRE life has been different. They are looked at/treated different, I am constantly looked down upon, inferior, the cute little kid, it was great when I was in middle school even early high school, but now everyones in college growing up with girlfriends..even getting married and having kids. I'm 20 going on 21 trapped in a body of a 13 year old guy. How the **** am I just supposed to not let this effect me, when all society shows me is that taller is better, every single couple the guy is taller, clothes are made for taller people. I don't even have many friends anymore, most of the friends I do have are 1-2-3 years younger than me, I party with younger people/girls. I feel that I am trapped/stuck in a high school life because of my height. I even had to move back in with my parents recently, I work at a pizza place, I am taking 1 class online. I constantly think down on myself and it is starting to really effect my life, I think about suicide a lot now more than ever. I am 100% sure that I have the napoleon complex or whatever it's called. Girls think i'm a creep/joke, I am invisible at parties. Yet people expect me to not let it effect me? Yeah it could be worse, I could have down syndrome, or some real mental handicap, but I don't, my mind is the SAME as any other guys, I want girls, happiness, money, cars....I have hormones, I had a great, funny personality but it just seemed to go away as I got older and I am sure this is due to me being so self conscious because it seems to get worse as I age...I need help..I am completely lost, no idea what my future holds, no idea on a career..am I pretty much fucked?
Edit: I also think this is why I got extremely addicted to WoW about 2 tears ago and I had to drop out f college due to it, I quit the game about 5 months ago but in the game no one cared if you were short irl, that's why I liked it so much. Another pic taken about 2 weeks ago: http://oi48.tinypic.com/vhqqb.jpg