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I am in a extremly difficult situation and it just emerged today and I am worried what the future brings.
I am going to have to start from the beginning.
Ever since my sister was born we shared a strong connection in a brother/sisterly way.
We did everything from playing with Barbie Dolls to running in the woods fighting with wooden swords.
We were best friends. Nothing could ever seperate us.
In 2005 when I was 13 and she was 12 both our parents and grandmother died in a boating accident.
We went through some very rough patches in life togheter and have always been there for eachother and a shoulder to cry on.
We went to the same school. We helped eachother with homework, same interests. We did EVERYTHING togheter and even shared the same room.
It went on that way untill I turned 20 and were moving out. I wanted to follow my dream in life and i had to move to another city in order to do that. A 3 hour long drive.
That was to much for both me and my sister to handle so we decided she would come with me. We could not stand being seperated.
We left home for good and moved into a new city.
We bought a house. We had alot of heritage so we were able to afford it.
W I contiued to follow my dream and she became a full time helper with that.
If its any of your interest I have a dream to one day become a bodybuilder. She helps me with the meals. I am probably the worst cook on the planet. She joins workouts and motivates me everyday. Basicly she does everything to support me.
Life was good. We had no economic problems. No health issue and live in a beautiful home. Life was perfect.
One might think its wierd to move in with your sister. It came very natural for us.
We even share the same bedroom in our new home like we have been doing ever since we can remember. It makes us feel safe.
Before I go any further i want to point out I have NEVER looked at my sister in any other way than a sister and my bestfriend. I dont think ''bestfriends'' even begins to describe how strong our bond were. Its just the only word i can come up with right now.
Then one day it all changed.
On a snowy day we went for a walk with our dog.
It was a beautiful calm snowy night.
We sat down ontop of a small hill near where we live on a bench and just enjoyd the beautiful view of snow falling quietly on a Desember night.
It was so quite and we sat close and held around eachother to keep warm becouse it was freezing outside.
Then all of a sudden she KISSED me on THE MOUTH for heavens sake.
I was stunned.. I did not stop it i just froze becouse i were so shocked. It wasent just a small kiss it was a long passionate kiss.
When she withdraw i saw tears sliding down her chin and i were speechless but at the same time when i saw the tears i started crying to. I dont know why.
I knew what that look ment and she started to explain how much she cared for me and those feelings just grows stronger and stronger everyday. And today those feelings just tipped over the edge.
It then became very quite again.. None of us said a word but we kept helding around eachother and just looked at the snowflakes falling.
That was the most awkard silence i believe I will ever experience for sure...
We walked home not saying a word but atleast i managed to say I will always love you no matter what before she went to sleep. I am not even sure myself what I ment by love after a moment like that.
Now my sister is a beautiful women and i personaly believe she is the most beautiful woman on the planet. Very attractive from any men's perspective.
She is so humble and sweet. Never seen such a caring person in my life and every moment with her makes my heart raise. She is the perfect women.
When I say this I dont mean it the way you would normaly say about a girl. I dont even know how to explain becouse i dont have word for it.
Just know that I never looked at my sister in a '' loving way the way you love a girl, girlfriend or wife''. Its hard to explain I am sorry.
I just care EXTREMLY much for her and she is everything to me.
I dont really feel conformtable posting a picture of my sister here so I will leave you with the idea.
Now here I am and I am clueless what to do. I dont seek advice becouse whats going to happen is up to me. I just want to know what you think about all this..
I love my sister and will always do. But after this I am not sure wich way I love her. So many thoughts have entered my head and i am starting to think would it really be that wrong to love my sister?
Whats your thoughts on this whole situation?...
Now I dont say I know this for sure yet but a question.
Is it REALLY that wrong to develop feelings for another person that means EVERYTHING for you. Even if its the same blood...
I know I know it might sound disgusting but this is the situation..