I'm gay, of course I have an attitude. Raiding and progressing calms me.. entertains me.. and fills me with joy! The lack of that has got to be part of the issue here.You sound like you got an attitude and should probably quit playing games for awhile. Try something more calming and come back in a couple months and see if you can handle it.
Or start over on a new server with the other faction.
Once I deposit my paycheck I believe I will do just that, transfer and faction change.