Welp, I turn 25 at the end of the month, and I've basically been dealing with an emotional break-down this past week, that my life is pretty much hollow. I have a GED, an abysmal GPA, all of maybe 5 college-credits, and a work-history that might as well be non-existent. I moved around a lot growing up, so I never really had any friends, so now that I'm grown up, I don't have any friends.
More than anything, what bothers me is not having met someone to fall in love with. I know it probably sounds "gay" or "effeminate" or whatever, but I guess deep-down, I always hoped to find someone like in those cheesy Disney movies. Most people who know me probably consider me fairly cynical, but I've just never quite been able to stamp-out that inner hopeless-romantic. My whole life, I've just never been "boyfriend-material", I guess. The few instances I've mustered up the courage to ask a girl out, I got shot-down each and every time.
So, I thought, I'll just do me, and focus on getting my life together. But I can't do that, either. I'm basically unemployable, I guess, because my only work-history was in a family-owned mechanic shop, which never required me to get certified, so that winds up being kind of a wash. As such, I'm basically competing for the same entry-level job-openings at 17 and 18 year-olds probably are, with not much else going for me.
Even with all of that, I think I could get by... but I feel I don't have any purpose in life. There's no family for me to be a part of, there's no possible career I feel passionate about, and no girl to fall in love with. Being almost 25 years-old, I feel like I'm supposed to be a "man", but when I look at my life, I feel like I'm no better, and no wiser, than when I was 16. I know so many people who are already getting settled into their lives -- getting married, having kids, getting promoted into high positions in their jobs -- that I feel like, for some reason, I'm "stuck" at just being a kid. And the kind of life I want is just slipping further and further from my grasp.
I suppose I'm getting a little carried away at this point, but... I'm just lost. I'm not sad or depressed, just feeling a bit overwhelmed. I know 25 is still relatively young, but I felt like I should've been at least been somewhat on-track towards building some kind of a life for myself. Clearly, I'm missing something; like missing puzzle-piece, something that "normal people" seem to have that I don't.