Hey again, guys.
Tonight... Well, stuff happened. The chick from this thread: http://www.mmo-champion.com/threads/...Beautiful-mind - contacted me again over email a little over a month before things ended. If you don't care to read all of it - it's details about our -then- "relationship" and how it went to hell.
For 2 weeks after our "breakup", I didn't feel much. I felt a bit sad and that's it. But then it suddenly hit me like a wave of emotions. I became depressed for a while and it was just this week when I finally managed to get through the days more or less at normal again with good help of my friends.
However, tonight she contacted me again. She said how she had been "stalking" me, checking when I was online and such, still trying to find things out about me. While I don't mind that at all, things got bad when she actually sent me an email saying she missed me. I said I missed her too and we came to the conclusion where we still had feelings for each other. Very much so. But she is apparently still not going to commit to me.
"Poem" I wrote about our situation.
"You took a chance on loving me, I took a chance on loving you. We danced the dance of roses, but oh, why hide such needles under your lovely petals? In the end when the dance ends, everything withers and dies. The cold winter came and mighty King Winter is merciless no matter where one tries to hide. However... Many doesn't pay attention to the fact that a withered rose still has its thorns... Oh, the sting..."
The whole thing this post is about is... Well, my feelings got pulled up for her again. My heart is laying bleeding in her hand and she's looking at it while crying. She blames herself for stabbing herself and me in the belly by contacting me again, but... I need to get my thoughts straight. I can't take this much more... Help me, Mmo-Champions!