It's just insecurity on my part I believe. So I moved back to hometown and went to a friends house and we all drank a bit. Nothing too bad, one of my friends got a little pissed off and we had to settle him down. I was pretty chill, grant it drunk, but enjoyed myself. The biggest problem I had was not only was a school friend there that I got a thing for, but she and I were talking most of the night. Nothing too big, just joking around and laughing. Now I am a rough person, in terms of my past and what not so I was a little crass. But so was everyone, and I most certainly didn't cause a scene.
But as I came home, those little lurking thoughts came to surface. The accusing thoughts telling me, "Oh you made an ass of yourself." and similar things. These are irrational thoughts, but right now I just feel (which feelings are irrational!) a bit like shit.
I don't like my friends to see this part of me especially since it's manageable, but I know the internet is good for being unknown. Can anyone just give their opinion on this fun night and help me ease these crazy thoughts?