So yeah you all know my story so you can check my post history if you want to catch up. Anyhow, just left an unhealthy relationship and while I am over it now, right now my approach/attitude towards relationships have been tainted for the worst. I see other couples and it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I question women's motives and wonder where the manipulation may lay/occur. My heart is severely guarded now and I'm very weary of letting anyone get close to me. Fuck it - how the hell do you folks put up with your SO? What keeps you motivated through thick and thin? What is the glue that keeps you from giving up?
I'd like real answers here. Alot of my relatives and family are asking when I'm going to date again and my parents are want grandchildren soon (but I have 4 other siblings who can step up and do that) - at least I don't have to worry about Valentine's Day - I can hide and just pretend the day doesn't exist. I wish I could take back all the time, effort, energy, sacrifice, and compromisations (sp?) that I put forth. I love women but I'm not sure if I can emotionally invest in one ever again.
I have therapy sessions twice a week (Tues/Thurs) so that has helped a bit, but I'm also curious as to what the mmoc community has to offer.
Thank you and God Bless 'MURICA.