So it may sound odd but I don't feel like I could live a normal life of simply getting a job to make money. Some time ago I created a bit of a selfish goal for myself. The quickest way to sum it up is that if I want to survive what ever impending shit storms are on their way I have to make myself an asset. Over the last four years it's shifted to this: the earth isn't going to save itself. So now I have all these ambitious goals and small changes I could influence here in there. Right now I just struggle with motivation and constantly question if I am smart enough to achieve any of my goals. Simply put I want my life to be full of purpose while improving life for society as a whole. So I ask, does anyone else share something similar to this? A desire to make a positive difference? A desire to simply make a difference?