... if allmost nothing is fun? People allways say that "you simply need to find a job that you love" if you want to have a satisfying work life. And to be honest, i don't understand how this is supposed to work. Let me assemble a list of things that are fun to me/things that i like:
> Video Games
> Playing Bass
> Sex
> Watching movies
> Going to concerts
...yup, that's it. How i'm supposed to turn any of these things into a reliable source of income is beyond me.
Video Games? Despite of what my friends are telling me simply because they're my friends, i don't have the charisma to become a youtuber. Also, that's not a reliable source of income.
Playing Bass? It's just a thing i do for fun, not nearly good enough to become a professional musician. Also, unless you are established, not a reliable source of income.
Sex? I have neither the looks nor the needed promiscuous nature to do porn.
Watching movies? Last i heard, people don't get payed for that, unless they're writing reviews, which is not my cup of tea.
Going to concerts? Same as movies
In 7 months, i'll be turning 25. So far, i have tried out several different internships. 7 or 8 i think. All of them ended with me crying in the bathroom after a couple of days. I found all of them to be unbearably annoying and boring. I once had a job for, like, 3 or 4 months. Just the same, unbearably annoying and boring. I showed up to work drunk one day because i couldn't stomach it any other way, and got fired (rightfully so). Working with other people is just nothing but pure, brainwrecking stress for me. I don't want anything to do with strangers outside of the internet.
And even if that wasn't a problem, i still don't want to settle for something that i don't enjoy. So, yeah... i have no clue what i'm supposed to do if i don't want to be stuck on government benefits for the rest of my life, but also don't want to fall back into heavy depression because my job sucks the life out of me.
Sorry for the wall of text.