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Everyone I know I only cause them pain, and stress, and difficulties. My family, my friends. My dependencies on them hurt them and I don't know how to stop it... there is literally no way out for me... no way to stop hurting them... I can't even kill myself because that will hurt them too... I have never felt so trapped. I hate that I hurt them... I hate that my very being is a stress on their conscienceness. I hate that even though they love me, they are also hurt by the fact that I need them. As a sort of crutch. I am a burden on them... a burden that no matter what I do I'll just make it worse... I can't stand on my own so to speak, and I can't relieve them of their burden. Everything will hurt them more, and they're already hurting now and I can't do anything to fix it... went so long pretending like I'm not hurting them, like I'm not a burden but in the back of my mind I always knew I am... and there is no doubt about it now... what do I do... when there is no out... when there is no way to stop being a burden without hurting them further.... I'm lost, and I'm trapped... I'm a failure as a child, a failure as a friend, a failure as a person... I'd rather die than keep hurting them but that's not an option either...
People tried to tell me that taking care of my mental health doesn't make me the bad guy. But the last few times I've seen how obviously it caused pain.. how I was the bad person... I can't be the bad person... I don't want to be the bad person... how trying to take care of myself took a toll on others.. People try to tell me when I say I wish I was never born that they're glad I am in there live, that they couldn't imagine life without me... but with how much pain I cause It must've been better? That's why I wish I was never born... it would be so much easier than dying now... they would never have known me to mourn me... and I'd of never caused the pain I had..
I'm a nuisance... I'm not sure I can ever claim true independence.. that I can be free of needing "crutches" and thus hurting those around me... I have so little in my life.. and what I have I hurt and I can't stand it... I could find someone new perhaps, someone else willing to be my crutch but I'll end up causing hurt to them.. they'll say its fine they're willing to carry me as a burden but I know deep in their heart all would rather not have that burden (me)...
I don't know what to do... I have no options... none... absolutely nothing I can do can not cause more pain....
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2016-08-04, 11:23 PM #1Mechagnome
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I cause pain and suffering to all around me.
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2016-08-04, 11:25 PM #2Deleted
4 paragraphs and you've said nothing other than you "hurt people".
Perhaps if you allude to what the actual problem is then we can help.
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2016-08-04, 11:26 PM #3Scarab Lord
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Hillary Clinton? Is that you?
Go see your therapist. Asking for "help" on a forum is really the worst thing you can do.Non nobis Domine, non nobis, sed nomini tuo da gloriam
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2016-08-04, 11:27 PM #4Immortal
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I feel you need a hug. Want one?
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2016-08-04, 11:28 PM #5DeletedI hope it was therapeutic to type all that gibberish, because it was worthless for any reader. There was no information there - you clearly want attention yet you give no reason for attention. Go and talk to a real person about your problems but before you do, actually make sure you can present them in an informational manner because right now you just sound attention-seeking and needy but not in a way that would encourage anyone to help you.
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2016-08-04, 11:30 PM #6The Insane
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Stop giving yourself excuses, and change. It won't be instant.
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2016-08-04, 11:30 PM #7Dreadlord
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Well you will cause a lot more suffering and pain to them if you commit suicide so don't do that.
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2016-08-04, 11:30 PM #8Epic!
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It seems you are filled with emotion that you need to express. A barrage thoughts that translate into words . More information on your condition would assist us in giving you our opinion. Do know that your view of the world and yourself may be distorted by these extreme emotions you seem to be having. Good luck
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2016-08-04, 11:31 PM #9Legendary!
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Why is dying not an option? It sounds like, from your writing, it would benefit everyone around you, including yourself.
Infracted - major flaming. Encouraging suicide is NOT ok.Last edited by Crissi; 2016-08-04 at 11:55 PM.
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2016-08-04, 11:34 PM #10Immortal
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GG you won the emo award.
You can now grow a pair and move one with life, like everyone.When googling 4 letters is asking too much fact-checking. Originally Posted by primalmatter
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2016-08-04, 11:34 PM #11Mechagnome
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Obligatory Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Everyone goes through emotional ruts. Unfortunately, they're a part of life. It sounds like you're experiencing one of those ruts currently. If you want, many of us are here to talk and we can try and help work through these together as a community. Although, I do highly recommend seeing a therapist; someone properly trained and with more than, the necessary resources to help.
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2016-08-04, 11:35 PM #12The Lightbringer
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Does the cemetery have WiFi now?
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2016-08-04, 11:37 PM #13Warchief
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Holy shit some of you guys are fucking nasty. Piss off with your horrible comments, a plea for help is nothing to scoff at.
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2016-08-04, 11:38 PM #14Mechagnome
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And you just inflicted a long painful cringe on me, well done.
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2016-08-04, 11:40 PM #15Titan
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Life is pain in a sense. But life is also laughing at the pain.
You should probably get a therapist (if you haven't already), MMOC isn't really qualified to give health advice."In order to maintain a tolerant society, the society must be intolerant of intolerance." Paradox of tolerance
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2016-08-04, 11:42 PM #16The Undying
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IRL Death Knight.
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2016-08-04, 11:43 PM #17The Unstoppable Force
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Virtually any human interaction causes both pain and joy, in various proportions. If you focus on the pain, then you will have your attitude. If you focus on the joy, then your life will change for the better.
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2016-08-04, 11:44 PM #18Pandaren Monk
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Then change the things about yourself that are burdensome.
Just saying it isn't going to help you. You're just trapping yourself in your own little pity party.
Look at what you just wrote, it's just a bunch of self hate while avoiding actually making the changes that will help you.
Also, people are dependent on each other. Some dependence/burden/nuisance/stress on others is normal and perfectly acceptable. Eventually (if not already), people will rely on you for some things too.
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2016-08-04, 11:52 PM #19Moderator
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This is something you really should see a therapist about. We arent licensed to deal with these kind of problems, and this likely will end up in a bad place.
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