guess how many people survived millions of years without anti-depressants?, after 20 years on them I know that they are a cage and nothing more than a different kind of pain killer. I got off them by learning about having a family and that helps the mind know that you are going in the right direction. Your mind tortures you because it knows you are either going nowhere or going in the wrong direction. I thought about suicide for years before Anti-depressants and thought they were wonderful for a while as I became a social butterfly but the weight gain, loss of motivation and directionless existence eventually made me realize that I was still just sliding into the darkness with more apathy.