My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic Part 8: Mmmcake

[Coffer]

I hate arrogance ("offensive display of superiority or self-importance; overbearing pride"). Arrogance is simply "too much confidence". My ego is both fragile and sensitive, and the way it affects me is binary. Either I'm confident or I'm not. I have...problems being in the middle, and thusly I would prefer to go to the "excessive amounts of humility" extreme than the opposing "excessive amounts of confidence".

You have a point there. I wouldn't really know where I'd place myself in that regard, to be fair.

Not to prospective employers, apparently.

"Why'd you drop out?"
"Well, I, uh...discovered I liked drawing ponies and writing pony fanfiction."

Mm, while it's the only downside that I can think of, it is a pretty big one...

Yeah. I have some talent in in the area, sure, but my heart's not in it anymore. Anyone with sufficient skill can be an engineer. Being an top-notch artist takes skill and vision.

Which, in turn, reminds me of why I asked you the question in the first place.

For some reason, I'm really starting to dislike the one thing that I've ever really been good at - coding. And it's gotten to the point where I'm considering giving up.

Sure, I'm reasonably good at it - I still like to think that I'm piss poor, but I've gone from knowing nothing at all in 5th grade to being #1 in the country in 7th grade, and I've stayed reasonably near the top ever since... I hate bragging, especially when it comes to this, as I feel that I'm nowhere near as good enough as I should be, but I can't just deny all of that. The problem, however, is that I just can't find the motivation to improve myself anymore. And other than because I'm starting to dislike it, I really don't know why. And what you said probably applies to my domain as well - I don't find it to be difficult at all, and it just feels like anyone with a brain could do as well as I currently am, while still being more motivated.

Psychology (surprisingly, most of it, though I can't say I know any specific domains...can anyone help me out on that?) is something that I really want to delve into, as I feel that I would really enjoy it, and if I had any sort of innate talent at all I'd try my hand at writing as well (I've written a LOT for my project, but...yeah, it's poor), but...

I don't know what to think anymore. It's quite difficult to think about, especially because I'm in 12th grade now. What that means is that it's too late to change paths, as I would completely forfeit any and all chances of studying abroad, and that's the only thing I still have going for me. At the same time, though, I don't want to be stuck with something that I do not enjoy, as I would eventually reach a point where I would just stop improving. Unless I've already reached that point, which is highly likely, given what I said earlier. Not only that, but the chances of it damaging my sanity and my overall well-being after a while are pretty high. And I don't want to fall into depression again.

I don't think anything that I just said makes any sense, so I'll try and sum it all up. I've lost my passion for coding, and I've found at least two other things that I would enjoy dabbling into a lot more, but I don't know if I should give up. If I do, I'll likely lose any and all chances of leaving the country, which would pretty much spell disaster for me, but if I don't, I fear that I'll get stuck with something that I'll end up hating, which might eventually make me explode. Wat do.

I'm also...something of a fan of intentionally gimping myself in order to overcome greater challenges. For example, Fizz. My preferred build is AP and attack speed with zero durability (unless you count Merc Treads). Does decent burst but performs suboptimally if he can't stick to his target and really make use of the attack speed. Also obviously dies if someone looks at him funny. Is it an optimal competitive build? Heck no. I just have fun with it because I feel that much better when I overcome the obvious obstacle of being a melee glass cannon, one that needs to stay in melee range for more than a couple seconds to do his job.

I do that a lot as well. For some reason, I both enjoy and hate it. Support being my primary role is a prime example of that. I love it because it gets me quite far, it's my best role and because it wins games for others, not just myself. I hate it because it's "slightly" boring and because I always end up feeling that I don't deserve to win, or, when losing, that I'm the reason why we're losing.

[Theklocko]

Well that just brings me back to the point that I raised earlier.
I know they don't want to drag it on, hence why they're usually only included in 2 episodes or so.
I just would have liked that ending to have been a little more thought out.

Yeah, I know. well in the end, let's just wait and see what they do with season 3, because i know it can't be bad.

[Golden Dragon]

this is great

[Cherrytie]

heyo pony people! I really want to play day z

Eat Zombies

[Thebigcheif]

They aint that bad
but imo MidnightClub took the lead now
Lets see what the new titles bring

Ya, I agree, MC:LA is pretty good, definately better than the recent NFS games

[Deleted]

Yeah, I know. well in the end, let's just wait and see what they do with season 3, because i know it can't be bad.

With most things I try to keep my expectations low, because most of the time I'll end up being disappointed anyway.
I don't have that feeling with this though, I do believe that they can carry on and probably even improve of the awesomeness of the previous seasons.

[Theklocko]

heyo pony people! I really want to play day z

I finished the chrysalis picture!

http://megacody2.deviantart.com/#/d5778dx

for just the chrysalis

http://megacody2.deviantart.com/#/d577972

for both chrysalis and cadence

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With most things I try to keep my expectations low, because most of the time I'll end up being disappointed anyway.
I don't have that feeling with this though, I do believe that they can carry on and probably even improve of the awesomeness of the previous seasons.

Man, they are improving the animation, i mean did you SEE the season 3 song spoiler with twi and spike, because i'm pretty sure you did. Come on man, it's gonna be awesome.

[Pendulous]

Still can't do Act 2 Inferno......

[Deleted]

Allright, 2 a.m.
Time to sleep.
Enough of the nostalgia. Good night.
See you ... eventually.

[Cherrytie]

Ya, I agree, MC:LA is pretty good, definately better than the recent NFS games

Sadly it had things in gameplay which wanted me to burn the game ^^
But perfect games are hard to find these days

[Deleted]

Still can't do Act 2 Inferno......

Still monk?

Allright, 2 a.m.
Time to sleep.
Enough of the nostalgia. Good night.
See you ... eventually.

Bye, come back laters! <3

[Coffer]

Speaking of NFS. I found NFS Underground in my dad's car a few days ago. Collector's Edition too
I liked NFS until the modern ones, absolutely ruined it. Wanted was the best imo.

Underground and Most Wanted were easily the best of the series. Underground 2 and Carbon weren't shabby either. I don't understand why people say that the Hot Pursuit ones (either the new one or any of the old ones) are any good though.

I remember now how detailed U2 was for PC

U2 is what got me into Rise Against. I'm surprised I still listen to them (as they're one of the two real bands that I still listen to, the other being Poets of the Fall (all-time favorite)), but I don't really mind that. They're decent enough.

The game itself seemed to lack a little something compared to Underground, but I'll be damned if it didn't look good at the time. Money well spent.

[Thebigcheif]

Sadly it had things in gameplay which wanted me to burn the game ^^
But perfect games are hard to find these days

It definitely has some frustrating aspects :P

[Deleted]

this is great
[video=youtube;gOxwo8TUQok]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOxwo8TUQok[video]

Heh, indeed it is =p

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Allright, 2 a.m.
Time to sleep.
Enough of the nostalgia. Good night.
See you ... eventually.

Take care Seelen. Let's hope you find another reason to post soon.

[Cherrytie]

Underground and Most Wanted were easily the best of the series. Underground 2 and Carbon weren't shabby either. I don't understand why people say that the Hot Pursuit ones (either the new one or any of the old ones) are any good though.



[video=youtube;Q1HEueR3cNo]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1HEueR3cNo[/vieo]

U2 is what got me into Rise Against. I'm surprised I still listen to them (as they're one of the two real bands that I still listen to, the other being Poets of the Fall (all-time favorite)), but I don't really mind that. They're decent enough.

The game itself seemed to lack a little something compared to Underground, but I'll be damned if it didn't look good at the time. Money well spent.

U2 led me the right way with music and lifestyle
Funny what a game can do

[Golden Dragon]

Heh, indeed it is =p[

I bite ponies because I was sorted this way

[Cherrytie]

It definitely has some frustrating aspects :P

Rubberband effect
and all my hate
Drive left now
trololo not that left x)

[Deleted]

Ya, U1 and 2 were awesome, I really thought Most Wanted was pretty good too, but after that ya, Carbon sucked and they still have never really gotten any better since, the new Hot Pursuit isn't bad but it feels so much like Burnout that it doesn't even feel like NFS anymore :/

You popped up out of nowhere. Either that or I'm just really bad at noticing people tonight.
Hey there Cheif!

[Pendulous]

Still monk?

Yu-huh. My Demon Hunter is still 51, I suck too much to play it, even with OP gear.

[Deleted]

The game itself seemed to lack a little something compared to Underground, but I'll be damned if it didn't look good at the time. Money well spent.

It was too orange and the roads were too wide. And the neons looked like shit compared to underground 1.