* Puts on glasses
This is commonly found with persons who have had a lot of humiliation or defeat in their youth, like coming from a family of violence or having gotten betrayed by people whom they trusted completely. They then consider themselves unworthy of love, because that is what experience have taught them. These people will often live for others, may it be a girlfriend/boyfriend, a mother or father or even a good friend. But they will do what they can to make people around them happy for two things. One because they need to see happiness spawned by actions they put into motion so they can get a feeling of accomplishment, even though it may not be true, and two because they do not believe in themselves but in others. And they put their trust in others because they do not want to put it in themselves.
It becomes more
interesting if you encounter a very intelligent man or woman who does this. Because it is a very basic psychological trauma that is easy to deduce, but how they fight it is highly individual. It can be making people smile around them so they look up to you as the funny guy, because you are afraid that it is the only thing you can do: Make people laugh
at you, but rarely
with you. It can be many things.
In my life I've met one of these guys. My cousin. She did just the thing I just talked about
: Always making jokes, always seeing the world with a smile. But she was smart as fuck, and I never questioned that. And I guess that was why she and I were pretty close. Not as in friends, because we rarely saw each other, she lived around 60km away from me. Later she grew so distant that I just felt pity when I saw her, not understanding or trust.
I haven't spoken to her in 5 years. The last I heard from her was my mom telling me how she tried to take her life but failed. Probably more of a cry for help than an actual suicide.
The human mind is never easy. And I guess I felt like ranting. Forgive me, but it was good getting out. Your sentence kind of triggered my memoria.