
Originally Posted by
Vetali
Okay, I've calmed down a bit.
I was reading through your post. It awestruck me the life you've had. Now, I'm a tasteless asshole. I'll admit it. After reading that first part, it really sunk into me. You debate for knowledge and experience, I debate to be a condescending asshole to people.
I don't really care about what people think of me. Not in the slightest. Its how I get through in life. If I cared, I'd be worried and stressed out about it. That stress makes me physically sick and depressed. I only learned how to cope with this recently and that is what I am now. I don't like who I am now, but its better than the me that was before.
Thats not really what had me so emotional really. I don't really know you that well. I chat with you in the thread, and thats about it. When I read the stuff about you wanting to commit suicide... it hit me. Last night I was talking to you, and you kinda cut off convo so after 15 mins of no replies I just logged for the night. Once I got to that part of your story I looked at your post history and saw what went down last night, roughly 3 hours after we were having the discussion about shirts and such.
It really struck me, and as I type this now I have to pause to wipe the tears off. I don't know exactly why. I'm not normally this emotional like this, I don't really know you that much. I don't really talk to you that much.
I don't know a lot, all I know is I want you to know <3