Yes, I know. I must be in a pretty interesting place to come to MMO champion for advice. But it can't help to get a broad spectrum of what people think about the situation I find myself in.
I'm from the UK and 32, and currently employed in a multi national tech firm. Well, I am employed in a subsidiary of said firm, but that's another story. Essentially I am there employee but without the benefits of a pension or any of the other nice things main liners get. Also I am on less pay than there main liners, (not by much though) although there main liners are on less than the market average, although when you count there benefits which I don't get it kinda makes it up.
Anyway, I am working in an environment I am finding more and more toxic. I suffer clinical depression and anxiety, have done all my life but only recently started getting treatment for it. Recently I went off on medical leave so I could get acclimitised to new medication. However during that time I was released from the project I was on (which was a shit project) and put on the waiting line for a new project. During the intervening weeks I have started to learn how little management know about depression and how people treat it, and how they can help to treat it. This has caused me to become isolated from others at work. It doesn't help that we hot desk, but there is never any space, so I find myself in a meeting room all day on my own. I had made plans to quit if a decent project did not come about within a few weeks.
Today I get a phone call from a prospective client telling me about a new project coming up. I would be working on the UI and front end aspects of it (which is perfect for me) and would still be based where I am. Just now I received and email from one of the head guys. It was pretty antagonistic, with lots of statements, no questions, and no words of encouragement (I had received an email from another high up lady that was at least encouraging). This email completely dispelled any encouragement I had for the job, and has made me doubt any decision to accept working on this project.
So now I am at an impasse. I don't know whether to stick my middle finger up at this guy (who I have learned has been using me as an example of who not to be in meetings) and leave, or to try and work on this project in an environment which is making me ill. What would people here do? I am well educated (PhD level) have savings to have a couple of months off work and reflect, and have good prospects if I were to look for a new job.
TLDR: Work place is shit, top manager is coming off as not a nice person, project offered seems good but would require me to stay in a bad place. What to do?!
EDIT:
Here's a comparison between two emails I got from similar level managers. Apparently I am on the radar because, well, being long term ill isn't compatible with their philosophy.
Originally Posted by email 1I report directly to the manager from email 2 in the management chain.Originally Posted by email 2