I think I hate my self....

[Zephire]

The title got you, cool.

I really starting to think I hate my self, what I am. Why? I don't know...

Resently played a little 2v2, nothing serious, we had a losingstreak, nothing serious, I mean, comon, 1600 rated as ret shadow? So we lost.... I obliderated my headset, its now in 10+ pices in the trash, cost me 60 euro, used it for like 1,5 years... I got so frustrated, not that much about WoW, more about how bad I am. People keep saying that "if you tell your self you're bad, you'll be bad", think I've told myself that so many times now that I'm starting to become bad... My confident is below zero, or VERY fragile. I can be 100% sure of something but as soon as someone say the oposite I become SO unsertan...

I've never raged like I did after that game, I think its bad maner to scream, destroy things and/or hit things hard with my fist. I usualy behave and swollow my frustration, transform it to energy which I use in whatever situation it'll be needed (like in a football game, using it to run faster, to focus better etc). I havn't acomplished anything in my life so far, had no relationship, no real work, no sex, nothing, just 23 years old but anyhow... Becomes kinda curious about what picture you get from reading this, how would you describe my look from reading this^^

I'm weak, nice and caring person, I put others before me, and I think my kindness and humbleness is consuming me, eating me, reducing my will to zero. I mean, whats the point in me wanting something when I can help someone else? I mean, if all did that, we'd be in a better world, woldn't we? Sigh, TLDR soon, hate thouse four letters....

TLDR: I suck, my confident is below zero, I hate my self, help this dipressed viritual person get a life or a kick in the right direction, maybe even several kicks in my balls^^ (yeah, a guy -.-)

[Borvo]

I usualy behave and swollow my frustration, transform it to energy which I use in whatever situation it'll be needed (like in a football game, using it to run faster, to focus better etc).

Are you related to the Hulk by any chance?

[Deleted]

start working out, its all in brain, working out will help you with everything, makes you a nice better strong person and get the best of you, you just have to be careful to not become an ass once you get some cofidence, witch happens quite often

[op3l]

Obliderated? :P

What you need now is to step your ass away from the computer and do something outside. Playing more wow will just worsen your self esteem. Internet isn't a good place to find self confidence because people can be absolute retards with no repercussion.

Good place to start would be to grab the English dictionary, go to a park, and learn some spelling :P <-- see how I can be an ass, but not totally an ass because I pointed out a way for you to better yourself?

[Imnick]

I don't think anyone on the internet will be able to help you get over this, seek professional aid.

[Frazzle.d]

I'm not going to lie to you or patronise you, speaking as a manic depressant I firmly believe that everyone, if not most people, must feel like this sometimes.

Do you want to know what it means? Just means you're human lad (:

The fact you're frustrated or down enough to go onto an internet forum full of strangers you'll never meet just means you want to change things for yourself. Get outside a bit more, go out and see the friend you haven't seen in a while, do some shopping, get a job (even a short term one) that you know will get you to meet and talk to other people. Maybe even study some random course at college or something, anything that you can do. You won't get into a relationship or a girl or a job unless you're out there, looking for and working for it. It might take a while, but doing things for yourself will give you confidence, bit by bit at a time.

[Hahalolubad]

Play hunter

[Oturanboa]

Working out works well^^ i dont really work out i'm 22years old and like...60kgs. But when u get a dumble and working a couple weeks and see your muscles pump... Dunno why but its just a good feeling now i dont have any "muscles" but they make me feel good when i try on em

Being the nice guy never works out and makes you even less intresting. Just be the guy who picks on people. Not aggresively tho no one likes an angry person but in my 22years of living i saw that people likes you even more when u insult and judge them on a -low- and friendly level^^

Most important thing is.. Get a girlfriend. And since you re 23, you WILL fall in love with her but DONT! dump her after a couple months. Gee than you'll see what self esteem is

Also doubting about yourself? havent you played ass creed? Nothing is true, everything is permitted
There you go dude! Dont let anyone bitch on you!

[Lzrheals]

Don't be hard on your self. Just work on the parts you think are bad, and if you can't fix it, let it go. Don't destroy your self over something so trivial. Take a break if you need to, review what you did, read how you can fix it. Or just take a break from WoW, play something relaxing but keeps your brain alert.

And get a cat. Petting cats help release stress, and makes you happy. Unless of course, the cat is a total ass.

[Lagwin]

It always makes me laugh when i read or see about someone raging over a game, almost everyone has done it at some point. but realy...your problem lies in your prioretys.
Get a stable Job, cut back on WoW, use some of the money on going out at the weekends and you'll be socialising and maybe meet someone.
Ohh and if its a case of you just not getting why you are losing and you know how to play...getting mildly drunk and having a game can just make things work...my first fps on a dual anouloge controler i spent the whole day trying to play the bloody game ended up giving up and going for a drink...when i got back i tried again and it all came together like magic.

[Deleted]

Dude, I can totally understand you.

The fact you're frustrated or down enough to go onto an internet forum full of strangers you'll never meet just means you want to change things for yourself.

I agree and I think that it's a good sign. But people are right and wrong about the internet... there are some who can be real arses and others... well they are just humans too and might have gone through the same thing you are going through.

What I consider the most important thing is... find something that makes you happy. Yes life can be that simple. Whether it is working out, fishing or playing stupid video games. It doesn't matter. Bur if you are having problems with relationships, don't expect them to go away just because you quit wow. The people behind the PC are humans too and to my experience they behave no different the people in the real world.

Women... aye that's a little tricky, but manageable. I think you need to be honest to yourself. What kind of person are you? Are you shallow or deep in your thoughts? How much affection do you want? How do you think about the most simple things in life: life, death, dreams? Everything else is just rubbish... there are the most craziest combination of couples out there and one would bet they wouldn't last a week, but they do.

If you want a women --> go meet one.
If you want to find out about her --> talk to her.
If you like her --> find out if she feels the same.
If yes --> profit.
If no --> get the next one.

People, especially easily depressed one, tend to overreact in the "no" case... don't do that. Don't confuse not being liked with not being the right one. Not all people fit together and women have a sixth sense for that. (FYI: The ones that don't have this sense are usually called bitches.)

EDIT: One Tip: The best Icebreaker you'll ever need is "Hello".

[TaylorGang]

The title got you, cool.

I really starting to think I hate my self, what I am. Why? I don't know...

Resently played a little 2v2, nothing serious, we had a losingstreak, nothing serious, I mean, comon, 1600 rated as ret shadow?

Take a break and get your head on =D

[MagusUnion]

I don't think anyone on the internet will be able to help you get over this, seek professional aid.

Yeah, it sounds like you are starting to need it.. Also, don't pour your self-being into online games, depending on the ability to preform well to feel good about yourself. Feel good about who you are outside the game, and I'm sure your experiences, in and out of WoW, will improve...

[Caliantha]

You can move to Tibet and become a monk. They seem pretty calm

[Krolikn]

lol. First taste of rage? Quit the game or embrace it.

[Thruma]

You just have to get the mindset right if you're gonna play serious arena/competitive sport. Positive attitude makes all the difference. If you keep telling yourself that you're bad you will be bad.

And about your personal life I think you should just go out more and meet new people, surely you must have a hobby besides gaming, and eventually you'll meet a nice girl/guy and have sexy time. You should check out www.dalecarnegie.com , my friend had a real problem with his self esteem and was beyond shy, this program helped him alot with learning how to speak up for himself, speak infront of an audience and just communicate with other people. I salute you for being so open on an online forum because most people here can be real pricks.

Anyways good luck in the future and don't hate yourself!

[Harlyboy]

Go buy some creatine.. Go exercise daily. Stop playing wow and force your self to socialize or do things you wouldn't usually do! Pretend that you have confidence and overtime it will become permanent. If you live in a city, call some friends, go to bars/clubs, or just small parties. Trust me, this might seem so stupid at the moment but you'll realize that the way of life your living isn't suitable and, in long term, bad for you. Worst case, you will come back to doing what your doing now... Just get out there and do it

[Thruma]

Go buy some creatine.. Go exercise daily. Stop playing wow and force your self to socialize or do things you wouldn't usually do! Pretend that you have confidence and overtime it will become permanent. If you live in a city, call some friends, go to bars/clubs, or just small parties. Trust me, this might seem so stupid at the moment but you'll realize that the way of life your living isn't suitable and, in long term, bad for you. Worst case, you will come back to doing what your doing now... Just get out there and do it

Don't fool him into thinking he needs creatine, just eat right and start working out!

[Traherne]

Probably should get some anger management

[Asotcha]

hon, for starters im sorry ur feeling so bad....maybe you became so upset after the game because a score affects your sense of self worth---but its also possible that you could be frustrated about your current status and wanting to see/do more with yourself.

if you dont mind me taking things one step further, im sure that you take very good care of others. but maybe what you forgot in the middle of it all is to also try and nurture your own heart, you need care as well. as altruistic as it is to take care of others, it doesnt make anyone selfish to put yourselves in positions where you feel a bit happier and better tended when you need it most. maybe you need that kind of tlc that you give your friends shared back toward you.

also, being 23 and having not started much----you feel like an old man because your over 20, and youll feel even older when your 25----but in the great scheme of things your still a young man with so much ahead of you. you can take loans and go to school, you can try and find a job that will support you in finances and meaning and get a brand shining new life for you---and be free and maybe even meet somone who thinks your some thing 'special' herself

(im in a position somewhat similar to yourself, only im a 30 yr old woman who doesnt make enough at her crap job to move out, but started taking online courses to finish college --which began at a community college btw--in hopes of making things better. im SURE you can do better then that--no one said the first steps were easy ones after all)

so...first of all try and calm down, maybe grab some hot tea or something--think of all the good things about you (dont be shy, you know there are plenty) and if it helps think of how youve helped your friends..and please dont forget that you have to love yourself too... really really hope i helped.

Edit: i read the other replies..these guys have some good ideas very much suggest you go try and do!