Would be nice if I could at least fall asleep.
Sometimes I just want to give up. Here I am sitting here doing nothing at the verge of losing my mind. I hate life. I hate everything. I hate everyone, theres no way I can go through with this. I've dealt with this for at least 10-12 years of my life and I just cant take it anymore. No matter how hard I try I never succeed. I'm at a breaking point and there can only be one solution that I really never wanted to admit to myself. Living life through all this really makes me think that there really isn't a god and we're all just some cosmic coincidence and that there is no human soul. You all go through your lives all happy and cheerful in your ignorance with your sparkle ponies while I suffer everyday when I wake up until I fall asleep. That's the best part of my day everyday, knowing that I can sleep and avoid all of it. But I know that once I wake up I'll be thrust right back into this nightmare. I'll never beat this fucking level of battletoads and I don't think I ever will.
Muahahaha
Madoka got a dvd release here, worth getting or not?
"Would you please let me join your p-p-party?