I can say the same of Blues 90% of the time. The one time I've seen ANY organization and it's typically the purples I'm playing against. Except that one biolab defense on Lithcorp when I actually got to be PART of said org and we utterly ruined a blue Zerg. Fun times that. So..about 1 battle out of several dozen.
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"Would you please let me join your p-p-party?
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Tell that to the TR outfits I see trashed regularly on Jaegar. Or the NC on miller. If I could find a DECENT one to join on any of my characters I probably would. The few outfit run Platoons I've been in have been garbage at best between those two. End up doing more good running around the map on my own repairing random tanks/sundies dropping ammo for AA maxes and rezzing EVERYONE.
I'm fond of honey lemon or honey lime tea, but apparently honey cinnamon tea is also really good.
Speaking of which, my mom (and a few others) suspect that I've been suffering from mild/severe depression for so long that I've literally forgotten what it's like to be happy. I didn't want to believe it in all honesty--I've done a lot of stuff I'm not particularly proud of, but I want those things to be on my head, not on the head of some intangible psychological condition.
Buut after being sick for a couple weeks (starting on Christmas >.<), it occurred to me how awful and how genuinely crippling being permanently depressed would be, so...in a week I've got an appointment with a specialist in internal medicine.
Aww yiss, looking at me talking about myself again. -grumble-
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Oh will you stop that, Blue :P You're actually allowed to express thoughts and feelings about how you are and how your life is going. [insert "Eternal Demands It" stamp here]
Anyway, yes. I had depression for a good four years or something like that, and it is crippling. You're no longer really yourself, but more like a hollow shell. Nothing really excites you or makes you happy. You just kind of exist. A combination of medication and therapy helped me recover (although honestly the work I was doing with myself was more helpful than the therapist, but at least the meds were useful). Fortunately, I've been able to be off the meds for almost 10 years now (go me!), but it was a bitch and a half to get there.
The purpose of the meds isn't to cloak over your symptoms or put you into a happy stupor, but to kind of dig you out of the hole just enough so that you can see the world again. The rest is up to you.
There is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to depression. It is a real illness, and should be treated as such. And also, you're not alone.
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Heya Frey.
Wow do you have me wrong. Like..insanely wrong. I've said quite regularly that I SUCK at this game, at least as far as actually killing anything. And I can't go anywhere without stumbling on at least one outfit while I'm supporting my ass off even randomly. regularly see the TR and NC ones get curbstomped by random squads and platoons. I love the geniuses that think outfits are the end all be all. You have to find a DECENT one or you're just going to get wrecked like always. If it doesn't have decent leadership then you're basically just playing with randoms regularly rather than occasionally finding a good group to keep in one piece.
Still wish I remembered the name of the ones at that biolab. I'd be rez grenading them all day every day. The zerg actually gave up and ran for the nearest tech plant after a while right after I suggested it in a yell. That was funny as shit.