You remind me of a certain... melonlord. :P
Well, I guess all I can really say is that I'm always welcoming if you change your mind.
If MLP has taught me anything it's that friendship, or having a friend to lean on, is important, despite what my aspergers thinks of it.
The way I look at it is that while we are shaped by life, we also have the freedom to choose who we are and who we want to me. It's the act of choosing that creates an authentic person that is true to themselves, despite the utter failure that may come from such choice. The authenticity is what matters, not the results. If you care about and are passionate about something, the worse thing you can do is leave it in doubt because you believe something has destined you otherwise. Our freedom is mans greatest acknowledgement about himself.
Yeah, super existentialistic, but that's just me. :P Just don't give up on something you care about. And if you really believe you don't care about it, then the first thing to do is find what it is you do feel passionate about.