Yes. Absolutely yes. I wake up every day wanting to kill people, and when I wake up early (insomnia) I lie in bed fantasizing about having my revenge and killing people until I drift off to sleep. I have told my doctor a watered down version of this (that I have anger problems), and she has prescribed me antipsychotics, but in secret I do not take them because one of their side effects is weight gain and I have my reputation as a ladies man to maintain. So I let my medication build up - the pill bottles already take up one entire shelf of my medicine cabinet. I think one day I will take all the pills in one go or I will crush them up into the drink of one of my one night stands, and no-one will be the wiser because Tinder anonymity. Even though the dark thoughts get worse and worse, I have not acted out in real life yet. Instead, gaming and online forums are my outlet. I relieve the pressure inside my head by being mean on forums and in game - queueing as a healer in LFR and not healing, and watching people rage at 10 stacks of determination, or being toxic in Overwatch. I do not what will happen if they ever ban me from Overwatch, but rest assured I will make a post on these forums revealing my true name so journalists can find my account.