Basic line, i have been with her since late summer / early spring, we had a good run, but then came winter. She went down to a friend of hers, and was there for 1 and a half week. When she came back from that trip, she told me what happened, the people she had been with had been selling drugs and using them, she knows how much I am against it, with a sister that is in the same kind of problems and almost ripped my family apart. so we had a few arguments over that.
Later on, about Easter, when i was logging onto my computer, she was still logged onto facebook, this was late at night, she had the chat up with a friend of hers, and the first message i saw was not one I liked. things like "would you come sleep with me, I’m lonely" and "ofc you can touch my ass" and things like that. naturally I was upset, so i called her and tried to make her admit her self what she did, but she lied to me. so I waited one day, sendt a heck of a message to her and refused answer her plea to talk. but eventually i said what i saw and she came with the excuse that she got a pill from the guy she was down with in Easter. and that she was lost, i find that worse than the messages. later on she told me to read thro the chat with him, to see that she did not write things like that again, but i found a lot of skeletons she forgot to bury, i confronted her with that, she said she took another pill, the last one. Me ofc pissed at her, lost my temper, but i still stood with her, but not with the same amount of trust that i used to have, much of my feelings have gone. After all i said, she had to cut contact with her friend, or else our relationship would go to hell, she refused to listen to me. but eventually we argued so much over this that she thought I was going to break up with her, so she broke up with me before i had the chance, so the joke was going to be on me. Naturally I felt a bit relief over this, since i had been thinking about this for 2 months. we went out to talk, took a walk on the beach, she asked if we were ever to get together again, my answer was that I didn’t think so, after all that happened. Then she finally realized what she had done, and for 2 hours she pleaded me to take her back, I broke out in tears and said i would take her back, even though I knew I should just have walked out of there and given up on her for my own best.
I have exams in 3 weeks, without her I will have a lot to think about, with her I will have just about the same amount of garbage to think about.. anyone got a tip on how I can solve this without failing my exam and doing something I will really, really regret.