Video Game Emotional Vent Session

[Kelimbror]

So I logged on to SWTOR for the first time since Diablo came out. I have been pretty clear about my desire to have this game 'fixed' because I want to play it. I've tried to understand why I want to play it so much, but I am at a loss honestly.


I logged on to my level one Jedi, Swiss....he's a Chiss. Best name ever? I agree.

The funny thing is that I don't even know what compelled me to log on. I think I really miss playing this game. I am not even a Star Wars fan. I played for a few hours until bed, but I was having a lot of fun. It started nagging me that I haven't played every character to max level. I starting to get the itch to sub again, but then it hit me that until I see how 1.3 plays out, with the group queue and hopefully better population, I am kinda grieving for my video game loss.

People might say that these are video games and to not take this seriously...but does anyone else just feel really sad when a game they love to play becomes unplayable/not fun anymore? All rants and flaming aside, has anyone had an experience like this with SWTOR or any other game?

Do you enjoy part of a game so much, only to be defeated by the worse sides of it? Maybe the first X levels are awesome, but then there's some dreary impossible part to the game that you could never beat that ruined your experience. Maybe you love a game, but the community literally makes you unable to participate. Maybe an MMO went F2P and changed everything you loved about it? Did something you love just click off one day, where you couldn't stand it anymore?

I'd like to hear some similar tales of loss and confusion, because to be honest, games are important to us. Maybe we need to vent some of our pent up sadness/grief over how our favorite games have let us down.

Here's to this one getting all the vitamins it needs to be healthy again!

[Deleted]

I tried to find a hidden meaning within your bolded words but I couldn't.

[iceberg265]

but does anyone else just feel really sad when a game they love to play becomes unplayable/not fun anymore? All rants and flaming aside, has anyone had an experience like this with SWTOR or any other game?

Yes, this is exactly how I felt about WoW.

Welcome back to SWTOR, OP. Glad you are enjoying it again.

[Kelimbror]

I tried to find a hidden meaning within your bolded words but I couldn't.

There wasn't a magic meaning...this isn't a puzzle. This is a serious post. It's my style for when I have a wall of text, to make the paragraphs much easier visually. but anyways, on topic...

Did you have a video game that went from fun to disappointment Mr. Fury?


Edit:
@iceberg...I know what you mean about that. I'm still in limbo with it to where I don't even know how I feel. So many years invested, it's like part of me won't let it go. I'll probably take the plunge in Mists, hoping to be surprised and sucked back in. If it plays me like Cata did, I will have to walk away for good.

[Cakka]

I tried to find a hidden meaning within your bolded words but I couldn't.

"So The People Do I'd(IT!)"

[Deleted]

One evening last October after spending over 2 hours flying round and round Uldum farming Elementium it occurred to me, what the hell have you spent most of the evening doing?!?!?!
It was then I cancelled my 2 subscriptions for WoW.
A few weeks ago I got a couple of scrolls of resurrection and gave it a try....3 Battlegrounds later and an untold number of chat comments in the BGs about the sexual acts one adolescent had done to another adolescent’s mother I logged off for the last time.

I know it is controversial but currently I much prefer TOR to WoW....whether I will in a few years is another matter.
I’ll say it before you lot do....”TOR will probably not be around in a few years”, I’m not say it will but it has potential to be.

[hx9]

Your style will be the topic of more replies than the content. Star Wars was made by a company that got in over their heads. Is it really as big a surprise to your logical mind that the game failed? Dying the game is, as Yoda would say.

[Cakka]

Your style will be the topic of more replies than the content. Star Wars was made by a company that got in over their heads. Is it really as big a surprise to your logical mind that the game failed? Dying the game is, as Yoda would say.

"Your Star Is Dying" Cryptic! :O

[jerrelholloway]

I have a similar feeling towards WoW. I spent a couple of good years in wow with my high school friends, and I even made a few friends. I want to want to play WoW again, and I do want to play a panda. I thought that I would get back into it with the pandaria Beta, but that just didn't work out for me. I had a good time with WoW, but it is outdated now to a large extent, and even with the future changes coming, it just isn't enough to bring me back even though I like most of them. The biggest thing I miss from WoW is friends, but a few of them ended up quitting as well. For the last year or so, WoW has just been logging on and flying around Org while talking to people. I mostly got tired of paying for an instant messenger. I've moved on. Life to be lived, many new friends to be made, and lots of other games to play. Right now, I am really looking forward to planetside 2. I think it will scratch my itch for an MMO quite nicely.

Wow... looking back at this it sounds like I'm talking about a lost love or something haha.

[davispunx]

This is how I felt about SWG when the CU was released and my weapon crafting and med crafting empire was completely trivialized.

[Nerph-]

I tried to find a hidden meaning within your bolded words but I couldn't.

I've got it! "So I'd Do The People'. He wants to do the people!

OT: No I haven't felt that way about SWTOR, after buying it at release due to all the hype and getting bored quickly I let my free 30 days run out and never played again.

[Deleted]

Dying the game is could say that to wow to


on topic: i had the similar feeling when i left ow for the 3-4 time never came backs after the 5 time. love the wow book lore its great bu the game is nah buts another topic. i still log on a few hours a week and play still SWtor and i still like i dont mix feelins all over the placea tm dont think it has to do whit star wars in the end

[Kelimbror]

Wow... looking back at this it sounds like I'm talking about a lost love or something haha.

That's the whole point! It's such an awkward feeling to see something one way, but then have it changed with time. It's like part of us moves on, but part of us is attached. People who don't play would not understand, I don't even understand, but something about these games is hooked into our being.

It's probably something that could be studied, but I'm sure it is very similar to other experiences. I too have the same loss for friends from WoW. I remember in TBC how we raided hardcore and how much fun I had. It's strange how an exodus of people or experiences we were attached to can create a void in the game. I think a handful of people are left from a guild I've known for 8 years. So many things have happened in my life, it's like collectively losing your family and not knowing how.

Just one day you realize everything is different and it's sad.

[WarpedAcorn]

I resubbed the other day and was mainly playing a new Bounty Hunter, and I was enjoying it. Then I though, "man, this single player is fun but I'd like to hop my Assassin to do some stuff too". So I got on and queued for Warzones while doing Belsavis dailies (raising Ashara's affection). All was well. Then I ran out of dailies and it started to hit me how long the queue was. I remember waiting a few minutes before I quit. I started getting impatient after 10min and hopped on my Republic Sentinel to see if it was better over there...nothing happened after 20min. So now I'm bummed again.

I'm not a special or unique snowflake, so I know others have to experience the same thing. So I think the thing that's killing SWTOR right now more than anything is the lack of players. If no one is around to do anything because the playerbase is spread over so many different servers, then players are going to leave. The 1.3 patch will hopefully help, but it needs to be pushed out quick or at least have the Server mergers/transfers happen ASAP.

I do want to like this game though. I've remarked to others that the Shadow/Assassin is the exact class I've wanted to play in MMO's since forever.

[Kelimbror]

I've got it! "So I'd Do The People'. He wants to do the people!

OT: No I haven't felt that way about SWTOR, after buying it at release due to all the hype and getting bored quickly I let my free 30 days run out and never played again.

But is there any game that has changed for you, whether an MMO or console, where you think about it differently? Where something about you or it changing has altered your entire memory of that experience? It's almost like the middle phase before nostalgia hits in, or a post depression nostalgia where your previous happy memories are not the same and you don't know why.

I mean this could really be transposed to any activity or hobby really.

It's just that SWTOR has really triggered my awareness of this.

[Parrin]

Yeah, Cataclysm did that to me. After leveling my main when it first came out, I tried a dungeon. It sucked. After a few months of poking around end-game and trying all of the options (except for the raids, which I've never had the time for), I didn't feel like the game was intended for me. The changes to my classes were just uncomfortable. The whole L2P post by Ghostcrawler kept hanging over me. And that left me feeling like I wasn't welcome anymore.

So I deleted all of my characters, and waited for SWTOR. When that came out, I had a great time, but got bored quickly. I still have a subscription, and will keep it going. But I've had to look at the bright side of certain things. For instance, while my server is quiet and nobody logs on to my guild anymore, I no longer have to compete with others on the Galactic Trade Network. My crafting products sell a lot better now.

[Wicari]

I tried to find a hidden meaning within your bolded words but I couldn't.

I think he was going for 'The people I'd Do' but just got the last two words mixed up

[JimPaladin]

This thread sucks.

Please post constructively.

[Deleted]

BF3 was like this to me, but it was my own fault. I took the game so seriously that in the end i'd end up doing nothing but rage and rage and rage. I promised myself to start a new leaf with the other games i'd play, with a more positive attitude.

[Kelimbror]

BF3 was like this to me, but it was my own fault. I took the game so seriously that in the end i'd end up doing nothing but rage and rage and rage. I promised myself to start a new leaf with the other games i'd play, with a more positive attitude.

It is definitely a different side of the coin to the same result. It is completely possible to self defeat a game, like you said. It is so weird how games allow us to channel too much of ourselves in them. I can remember going ballistic on raid wipes to the point where I was screaming in my apartment...I can't imagine what the people around me think I do.

I probably should have put this in the general discussion, but SWTOR is what led me here. I just wondered if a lot of people playing this game, after a string of other games, have experienced these things.

It does seem to be a common event from gaming burnout. Maybe I'm just at a point in my life where I have no idea what I've been doing with myself. Sorry to whip out the proverbial couch for everyone...but a lot of people had some strong hopes with this game and it's pretty weird to deal with that desire versus reality.

I'm seriously hoping that something will click and I can love it. This strange game limbo feels very angsty. We all know that feeling of counting down the work hours to play 'x' game...it's weird when you still feel that but then keep getting smacked with that wall of realizing for the 100th time it's not satisfying anymore.

edit:
as much as I like bolds for paragraph recognition, I didn't want to start a secret code society in the SWTOR forums. Maybe in the future...