Originally Posted by
Claymore
I know that none of you care, but I don't have anyone who I can talk to. I was sitting outside, on the phone to just order some food, when I hear my dog start yelping hysterically. It takes me a second to recognize she's hurt, then to see a car come to a halt right next to her. She's a small dog, but I could see her little body just frantically moving around. I just yelled at my sister in the house, then ran out to the dog. She stopped moving before I even came out of the door, and I think stopped breathing.
It's actually my sister's dog, and she was old anyways -- about 12 or 13 -- but I guess I'm just more attached than I realized. Since I got laid-off last year, I've spent a lot of time at home with it, and I could barely even speak. I've been crying off-and-on tonight, as has my sister.
It's my sister I'm really worried about. We've pretty much had to take care of ourselves for most of our lives, and while we both have had bouts of depression, she's actually had to take medication as hers has lasted pretty much forever. The dog would get so excited when she'd get home from school or work, or even if she'd only been out of the house for a few hours. The dog would also sleep up in her room every night.
Like I said, I know that nobody cares, but... I guess I just don't know what else to do. I've got no one to talk to about it. When we lost our dogs and children, there was always a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen. Now, it just feels... lonely. Every time I hear some little noise, I just instinctively turn like she's (our dog) is gonna be there. I've lost friends and family before, but this just really hurts.
Again, I know none of you care; I guess I just needed to get vent. If you bothered to read any of this; thanks. Stupid as it is, I feel a little better just having typed this.