They'd listen to you and give advice based on your situation.
I'd also give you your local NHS crisis numbers for community support (Nurses and STR workers) who'd come out and visit you but I haven't the foggiest where you live in the U.K.
But to me it seems like you have recurrent depressive episodes culminating in attention seeking behaviour.
That's not a healthy fix to your difficulties.
Call one of the numbers I posted and they'll help.
08457 90 90 90 Samaritans, 0300 5000 927 RMI, 0845 767 8000 SANE, 0300 123 3393 MIND, 08444 775 774 ANXIETY.
All numbers deal with mental health ect.