Are you afraid of death?

[Zipzo]

^ Title.

I am.

Actually, for me it's quite bad to the point I'd call it a phobia, or some kind of mental disorder. I'm 27 years old and I fear death on such a scale that it's difficult to describe. Some nights I can go hours without being able to sleep, just thinking about how eventually, I will cease to be and I will not even be "I" anymore. I won't have my wife, my son, my family, friends. I won't be anything. I won't even be able to be pissed about it, because I won't even be.

This thought torments me, depresses me. Sure it makes me want to get out and live life, and I already do that! Me and my family are very active, but these thoughts torture me so regularly. It even extends in to every day activities, like sometimes I'll be walking down the street and I'll fear a non-existent bus wiping me out. Waiting for a train, and tripping in to the rails. Poof, gone.

Sometimes I even have terrible thoughts of accidentally or inadvertently being the cause of someone else's death, like bumping in to someone and pushing them in front of a train or car, or accidentally doing any number of things that could lead to someone else's death.

I'm a person that, without question, would take an opportunity to live forever with everlasting youth at any point before I turn 60. Hypotheticals about seeing my friends and family die multiple times over or even seeing the universe implode...still doesn't sway me.

There's probably some sort of messed up shit I should try to get sorted in my own head over stuff like this, but it truly is something I find myself dealing with, with seemingly no real solution. Who can you talk to that can make you feel better about dying? I mean...nobody. You die either way...

*Sigh...

EDIT

I wanted to cover some common elements in the responses to explain my feelings further.

"You'll be dead so you won't care about it"

I don't understand this bit of insight. The primary reason I fear death is because I'm alive. If I'm dead already then I wouldn't fear it. I fear it because I'm alive, thus, it makes sense to ask among living people if death intimidates them. No, I won't care after I'm dead, but this is a pre-dis positioned fear of the unknown and the consequences of no longer being alive, of not being what I am now.

"Why fear something you can't control?

I fear it precisely because I can't control it.you also cannot control a rabid bear with your bare hands but that doesn't make me any less afraid of coming face to face with one. How is it something becomes un-fearful simply because you can't control it? Why are we as humans so aware of our mortality? It feels like a curse.

[melkesjokolade]

yes /10char
getting panic attacks over it where i become completely lost, have to be calmed down hard.

[Deleted]

Not by my own hands or by age. Someone killing or by disease, though, yes.

[Forgottenone]

Wishing there was a "Somewhat" option. I am not completely terrified but it does make me uneasy at times. The only time it never bothers me is when I am with my GF or with my dog lol. Without them I am still usually fine, just every now and then it will rock my ship a bit.

Overall though, unfortunately there is nothing that can be done so I don't mind completely. As Lilla Blomma said, if it is something like being killed by another person or some freak accident then that would suck. However if it is by old age, I am fine with that.

[Deleted]

Yes, because I haven't finished everything I want to do yet, not even close

Once I'm satisfied, then no problem

[Acelius]

I don't fear death but I hate knowing that I will be gone so I can't see how the world will progress. I am far too curious.

[angelsdeath]

Nope. Death is part of life. Why be afraid?

[Super Kami Dende]

I try not to think about it.

Generally opens up a pandora's box of existential crisis

[Seranthor]

^ Title.

I am.

Actually, for me it's quite bad to the point I'd call it a phobia, or some kind of mental disorder. I'm 27 years old and I fear death on such a scale that it's difficult to describe. Some nights I can go hours without being able to sleep, just thinking about how eventually, I will cease to be and I will not even be "I" anymore. I won't have my wife, my son, my family, friends. I won't be anything. I won't even be able to be pissed about it, because I won't even be.

This thought torments me, depresses me. Sure it makes me want to get out and live life, and I already do that! Me and my family are very active, but these thoughts torture me so regularly. It even extends in to every day activities, like sometimes I'll be walking down the street and I'll fear a non-existent bus wiping me out. Waiting for a train, and tripping in to the rails. Poof, gone.

Sometimes I even have terrible thoughts of accidentally or inadvertently being the cause of someone else's death, like bumping in to someone and pushing them in front of a train or car, or accidentally doing any number of things that could lead to someone else's death.

I'm a person that, without question, would take an opportunity to live forever with everlasting youth at any point before I turn 60. Hypotheticals about seeing my friends and family die multiple times over or even seeing the universe implode...still doesn't sway me.

There's probably some sort of messed up shit I should try to get sorted in my own head over stuff like this, but it truly is something I find myself dealing with, with seemingly no real solution. Who can you talk to that can make you feel better about dying? I mean...nobody. You die either way...

*Sigh...

Am I afraid of it? No. Not in the least. Why? been too close too many times.

[Jester Joe]

I try not to think about it.

Generally opens up a pandora's box of existential crisis

Exactly.

The easiest way I have of dealing with it is thinking "Well, it won't be an issue until I'm old, and by the time I'm old, I should be more accepting of it".

[Independent voter]

I never seem to think about it. It's the fear of the unknown, like having sex for the first time only not as cool.

[primalmatter]

Yep even with seeing it more often then most I fear my end.

[bison91]

yes. you dont have feelings. you dont have anything (unlike sargeras...). like there is an apocalypse for you happened and there is no keep going forward. just nothing.

[Stonecloak]

No not really. You won't even be conscious to experience being dead. So its even less aware then sleep is, and when one is fast asleep, tomorrow comes real quick. So anybody who dies doesn't need to worry. I think it's some major belief systems that scare people. Beware of those. How your going to die I can understand some anxiety, but death? No way that's the easy part.

[Rotomon]

I voted yes because while I fear death, I'm not afraid to die for something. I'm comfortable With the idea that there's nothing waiting for me after death. Knowing that I will just cease to exist. Id guess that is one of the few things religion makes easier with the afterlife thing but you know those people tend to waste their lives in hopes of a better afterlife. I do not subscribe to the mentality that its better to believe and there be nothing than not to and find out there is an afterlife. If you're a good person that's all that should matter.

[Goradan]

No, It comes for us all. But what I have an issue with is the motherfucking pain if I die a painful one.

[Deleted]

Death itself doesn't scare me. Going from being alive, from being dead does however. The pain that potentially comes with dying

[Maverixx]

Only madmen don't fear death.
And there are people how just don't understand the meaning of death.
Others are, but it's ok. Death is the end. After that there is an endless void of non-exictense. Death is the essence of fear, so it's normal.

[Wildtree]

of death? no......
of dying maybe..

It's kinda like falling out of an airplane.... the fall is awesome, the sudden stop at the ground is the nasty shit.

[Deleted]

Yep, that's why I'm gonna be immortal.