I'm sitting here and it's soon 2 hours past midnight, and I've just had a train worth of anxiety hit me when I was taking a shower. I almost rushed out of the shower, barely managing to keep myself in control between my panic and my fears of dying to heart failure.
My medication clearly is too weak and ineffective but I've taken another pill (I've been told I can, it's a harmless medicine often used for anxiety or allergic reactions, anti-histamine thingy.) and I've calmed down some, but I'm still afraid of laying down to sleep.
I'm trying my best to convince myself that I've done so thousands of times before and this time won't be any different. Infact, I've spent most week sleeping quite a lot, due to depression and these meds making me a bit sluggish the day after I have to take them.
In the morning I'm going to psychiatrist, scheduled it some time ago, but it feels like that's almost stressing me.
So, do you have what I have? How have you dealt with it?
Words of encouragement and tips are very appriciated. Writing this has helped me a little bit. Better out than in, as Shrek says about burping.