So I just finished my 1st semester of college I go to a school about 25 minutes from my house and have been living in a dorm on campus. However throughout the year my depression(long history of this, thought I had it under control but it rears its ugly head once again) has worsened greatly, to the point i am considering terminating my housing contract and just living at home and driving there. Who has done this and how has it worked out for you? I worry that it will just turn me into a loner with no friends.... but it also seems like it could be a great idea, commuters what has your experience been? I find living in a dorm room causes one to slowly go insane.... since i moved here my temper and fuse have shortened greatly, I used to be very placid and passive but at the moment I feel like a psychopath. I feel like commuting could possibly be just the solution i need.... but lets hear what you guys think.
To put things in perspective the other night I got sort of drunk and that was .... a mistake. It took all my underlying depression and frustration and made it latent, I have never been an angry drunk before this year, wehre every single time I get in a fight, break something, or hurt someone (scary thing is none of my friends are physically capable of stopping me, I could seriously hurt or kill them). I dunno but something about this experience tells me I just am not emotionally ready to live alone in a claustrophobic room, am i some kind of freak/mama's boy?