You are still good, you believe you arent as good because you are out of practice or as i call it you grew up to the:
/care mentality.
I am the same for a few years now, why tryhard for something mostly irrelevant just for a different skin color, who gives a fuck.
Basically you dont care to be better than you are cause it is not needed, you are already good enough or better for the stuff you want to do.