I don't know how to put it, but I have always been 'haunted' by this eerie void. Ever since I can remember actually and I think it is connected with growing up fatherless. I have always suppressed this feeling through school, work, friends, sport, video-games etc. But it just lingers in the background. Coming out on a rainy pretty grim saturday. Do you simply ignore it? Does anyone know what I am talking about?