Err no science isn't about believing its about accepting whether something is fact or not (and providing a confidence interval on that acceptance). That's where you go are going wrong. You can either accept reality as we know it or reject it, and you are rejecting it. That you use belief as the way to reject it is irrelevant to that. Its reality. Reality won't stop being reality just because you don't like it so choose to disbelieve in it.
That you reject reality to go with feelings and beliefs is pretty sad and pathetic if you think about it.