In what way did I blame anyone for my problems? I said that a string of hurtful scenarios left me with diminished self confidence which affected my willingness to put myself out there. Stating cause and effect isn't complaining. I never sat by myself and cried about how nobody loved me. I just stopped trying. It wasn't worth it to me. Maybe it offends you that someone could just not really care about seeking out affection, I don't know. The way you're trying to psychoanalyze me is really weird.