I know you encounter this in every game but my burnout from Overwatch is sourced a bit differently...
It has to do with the fact I almost have 300 hours invested into it(which I find personally insane) but I'm still running across players, readily, that have several times that investment and a whole wardrobe of gold guns to go along with it. It absolutely kills my own self-esteem and deflates any sense of self-worth I might have going into a match.
This is because it's often accompanied by a huge skill differential. While I might obliterate newbies and heavily challenge more average players regularly, they make me look like I've never played a day in my life more often than not. It's almost insultingly frustrating to encounter. Can't imagine how it is for others arguably beneath my skill level.
It's this disparity of investment that is gradually making me lose interest. I always enjoyed games as a pass-time. Something to alleviate my woes and help me to relax. I'm not getting that anymore. Instead I am getting this strange, bizarre sensation that repeatedly creeps up on me in which I could be doing more with my life if I'm going to take it that seriously in the first place rather than attempt to compete with individuals who clearly do not put value on anything but the game itself and their performance.
...and it'll mean nothing beyond that game. That's the critical difference between that kind of investment in a game and life itself.
So I stand at a crossroads:
* One path, I choose to accept the idea that maybe I will be crushed. That there is a sect who simply will invest every waking hour and breadth of their existence into this game and I will not be able to fairly compete. Is what it is. Yeah it might ruin my fun at times(because who finds simply being stomped enjoyable?) but I can try to siphon joy out of the mere sport of the game itself and all the details therein.
* Second path, I choose to forgo my life and join these people. People mind you that I tend to personally loathe as they are self-destructive unto their own being whilst simultaneously making other people miserable because the skill gap is so immense it isn't really "sporting" at all. You have to surrender so much just to be even remotely competent comparatively.
* Third path, I choose to quit. Determine what values I desire in a game and why and also certify that this is possibly something that needs to be extended towards a myriad of multiplayer titles. Particularly ones that get really into the whole "e-sport" mentality of it all in which helps to drive that insatiable desire out of a given group of individuals who will stop at nothing to attain superiority and compound upon it -- even if merely for the sake of.
Anyone else feeling this way or has felt this way? I get that I can't always be "top dog" but Overwatch seems to take things a little too far and the disparity is soul-crushingly bad as a result. It's even better when you actually seem to be putting up a challenge initially(still losing ultimately) only to get the old, "I'm just warming up for the day," taunt. Awesome. Way to shit all over me and my effort. Saying I should simply do emotes and accept inferiority?
I'm probably overthinking this. I tend to do that. Doesn't change how I feel though. Really disappoints me.