Pre Story: My best friend since the first school class is a little bit strange and had a hard childhood.. altough he is good looking he is very very unsocial.
Because it was my best friend and my girlfriend understood him well, I wasn't angry if she hold against him or hugged him more often to make him feel good. At least at the start. Time went on, and I had a hard time in school & at work so I was stressed... not an excuse but I didn't called my girlfriend everytime to come over ( I thought it was normal to come around now and then so I didn't ask anymore "would you like to come over?" ). And sometimes I yelled at her, even though she only wanted my best.
2 weeks ago I told my girlfriend while we were lying on the bed "Watch out you don't fall in love with him" more jokingly but with a worried note. She said oh god never.. and we cuddled & kissed.
Now on Friday morning, we went to school and she was really really strange. But we hadn't had enough time so I went to my class, and she to hers. I wrote her an sms short after "Im worried that there might be something with him" then she instantly wrote bock "I don't want to lie.. perhaps it is.." I quickly wrote my best friend if he knew it. He told me yes. And that they already kissed. I was so angry. I got out of my classroom, got in hers, tears in my eyes and got her out of the classroom. She told me everything that it went on for now 5 days but only kisses. We talked a lot and then.. she didn't knew what to do. So we all 3 though of a break. Everyone from everyone. No messeges, no meetings. Nothing.
But before the day ended, my girlfriend messeged me that she would come over to make me not waiting any longer. She broke up with me in front of my house.
To be together with my best friend.
I'm totally devastated because I lost everything on that day. I don't know what to do.. I really do love her.
I don't know if the love between them is just a short affair because I didn't care well enough about her the last month..
Or if I could get her back.. If I wanted to ofcourse.. I don't know If I would take her back.
I talked to many many many friends, everyone is on my side ofcourse.. but everyone is biased.. so I thought this forum would be a great chance to get some tips.. totaly neutral.
Help me out here..
Sorry for my bad english, I'm from germany..